‘Accept your ugly’: I tried ‘beauty shadow work’ to help my self-esteem

Embarrassingly, I started surfing lessons because it’s sexy. My self-esteem was low, and signing up I could already see it: glossy wetsuit half unzipped, salty droplets articulating the curves of my face and bikini top, my fingers raking through sea-tousled hair. But after the first few lessons, as I zoomed into photos, it dawned on me: surfing actually makes me look… kind of chopped. Blots of scarlet on each cheek, aggravated rosacea, and hair in monstroushellip;

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